2008 & me?

2008 is almost like a rollercoaster ride for me? hmmm...no no, 2007 was a rollercoaster ride already! hmmm...or maybe 2008 is also like a rollercoaster ride for me...

1st, i left a stable job...

2nd, i stepped right into things that's not really me...business, insurance...

3rd, i'm beginning to feel the pressure of doing sales...

well, this is JDI year for me, i guess!

(gf and i decided during new year 2008 that this year would be 'just do it' year for us!)

and here i am, in the middle of a sales job, hoping that none of my friends is avoiding me...

stuck with a company which won't move unless i start doing anything...

and like everything isn't challenging enough for me, there's something wrong with all my clients, and they may not even be my clients anymore...ah! did i tell you that i have a target to hit as well?

everything coming at the same time...how nice!

but of cos, there're some great things that happen along the way! pleasant surprises like...

- i'm going for my first 21km run in 3weeks' time? *nightmare!*

- i've got a surprise hk trip in sept!

- i'm going to hk in dec for mich's wedding and i'm going to be one of her bridesmaid!

- i'm trying to get to taipei for deaflympics2009!

- i'm trying to also get to women's seminar in KL before hk trip!

- my little nephew/niece/god-son/god-daughter is coming in dec!

woohoo!

but of cos, the sales target is still bugging me at the back of my head...

and i just chat with a fellow newbie online who told me he left the business...that wasn't the most encouraging thing to hear...

but i know what i want, i know what's my plan for the next one year, i know i want to work towards that...and that's that! decided!

i'm going to work for it, to work hard for it, to get out of my comfort zone and work for it. it's not going to be easy, i know it way before i stepped into this but i'm just going to give it my best shot before i decide if i am giving up.

i'm going to work my a** for it...

me, my life and what i want to do to it!

i was just wondering what she wants to settle with me when this friend texted me recently and told me that she wants to meet me to settle some stuffs...
i digged into the back of my head if i have anything with her? did i lent her anything that i've forgotten? or what could it be?! what stuff does she have that she'd want to settle with me?! *blank!*

well, u see, we've known each other for like 8 years? we work together on a free-lance basis, she teaches me how to climb, how to do field cooking, how to tie the correct knots, how to pitch tents correctly, how to bring out the best in your campers, she lead me into the wild, into the whole new world of the outdoors. we can talk about anything, everything but we're not exactly close, as in we don't meet up unless it's for work or adventure is involved. we don't especially meet up for makan, kopi or movies. but we met up just 3 weeks ago cos another mutual friend of ours planned a gathering. so what does she want to settle with me now? *shrugs*

i went to meet her anyway, excited to see what she has to share...maybe it's a new adventure! u never know!

so well, she shared about this training and how it has helped her and many other pple to put their lives together. and how it makes you look into you, throwing all your excuses into the rubbish bin and brings you to the real you, acknowledging what you want to do with your life. it sounds so cool! honestly, i somehow hoped that i could go for this training so that they can read my future for me... *hello?! it's a training, not fortune telling!*

well, anyway, after lots of thoughts, i decided that i know what i want and that's what i'm going to work towards! ahhh...and one more thing, maybe i should declare what i want to do and make it known so that i can push myself to further heights...maybe to my gf... :)

i saw this on my friend's blog and i thought, YES! if i don't get to where i want, it's my fault, it's all about seeing the end in mind! crossing the obstacles, going thru the tunnels, clearing the road blocks and swipe-ing off the unwanted stuff...staying focus on what you want to do!

'You can check out of this life any time. If you go without having done what you wanted to do, it's your own fault. If you're doing something you don't want to do, you shouldn't be doing it at all.'

back on!

oops! realised that i last blog a good six months ago!
keke! well, many things happened in this six months...left my job, gotten new plans, renewed friendship as I take on more effort to meet up with long-lost-friends, etc etc!

what create that itch to blog again? maybe because i have more time on hand now, read some cool blogs, many happenings, and i just want to put them down in words! keke!

writing is one thing that i never liked...i read, yes i do! i don't think i read alot (as compared to some of the bookworms i know), but i do read! as hard as i try, i'm just unable to reproduce what i read into words, sentences, phrases...

but still, i try...i want to put my excitement, my ups, my downs, my happenings all into words... :)